Email

Hello there Terr.
Well I just thought about you when I walked outside.
The thought made me sick again.
My head seems to be on fire. It is amazing the physical incarnation of this.
Well I have made a decision. I think that I am going to go to the doctor and ask to be put on antidepressants.
I seem to be in a downward spiral and I see no roadblocks that would prevent or help my path.
You really perplex me sometimes. The thought of a hug haunts me.
All I want is to feel that again.
That is so much to ask. That is too much to ask. ?
I want you to see this email but yet I think it might be too much.
These are my inner thoughts and feelings.
I should hold back right? These are mine and you don't care.
Well you may care but you don't reciprocate.
So why should I? So why should I care if you see this email?
Why would I want you to see something personal of mine? Yes it is about you but hell, what the hell.