Beat Down

I am exhausted. Physically and Emotionally! It's early Sat morning and I just got back from Terr's apartment. I had to sit down and write something; hopefully it will help calm me down. I was extremely busy today with a bunch of BS stuff and Terr wrote me an email saying to come over. Long story short, she is late with her monthly visitor as she puts it. I don't know what to think or what to say. I was totally taken aback. My first response was "Are you sure" and the second was not very good but "Is it mine?"
She didn't like either but was mad for the second. My girlfriend might be pregnant. We never discussed kids. Until now. We were at the point of discussing marriage … I think.
I am so just shocked right now. I am so wired that I can't sleep. What if she is pregnant? I guess we would have to get married. I want to marry her anyway, but kids are big-time.
I am kind of speechless right now.